The phrase “letting go” has become a bit cliché in my opinion. We find ourselves baffled by what to hold onto and what to let go. As a parent, we know without fail that we never let go of a child. But we do need to learn and accept that we can’t fix everything for them even when they are just helpless little babies.
We have to let go of matters that are out of our control, which, it turns out, is most of it. Sometimes our grasp is so tight that our fingers have to be pried off, leaving behind a mark. Perhaps “letting go” sounds like something is being taken from us. Maybe we should think of it as “handing it over.” Willingly, freely, trustingly, handing over our fears to the God of eternity.
There were no outward signs after our daughter’s birth that caused any alarm from the hospital staff. Twenty-four hours after delivery we brought her home where she was welcomed by her two-year-old brother who wanted nothing more than to hold her and show her his trucks. In my mind, everything was good with the universe, as they say. I had my boy, I had my girl, and she was growing and thriving beautifully. Or was she?
My husband accompanied me to Catherine’s ten-day wellness exam. We were planning to go straight out to dinner afterward to celebrate our five year wedding anniversary. (She was nursing so we needed to tote her along.) After a few minutes into her examination, I noticed a concerned look on the face of our regularly jovial pediatrician. Then he brought one of his nurses in to confer on something. With a tinge of trepidation, they took us aside and informed us that our baby’s heart rate was very high and that we should take her to an emergency room as soon as possible.
In complete disbelief, we rushed out to the nearby hospital, where they did tests and sent us home. We walked in the front door of our home to a ringing phone. It was the hospital telling us to take our baby to the Children’s Hospital ER. Even though on the outside our daughter appeared to be thriving, she was a very sick little baby.
We spent fifteen arduous hours not knowing what was wrong with our infant daughter’s racing heart. To make matters worse, the experts in the ER and the Pediatric Cardiology Unit of Children’s Hospital National Medical Center couldn’t figure out what was going on. We were devastated that this tiny little baby whom we barely knew was in so much danger. I could barely breathe.
The most difficult part for us was that we had no control over it. So we did the only thing we could. What started as panic, emerged into prayer. With friends, family and even strangers lifting us up in prayer, God enabled us to “hand her over”, not let go, but hand her over into His loving arms. Who better to deal with her than the one who created her? The one who knows all.
The next morning the long awaited cardiologist, who was the expert on infant echocardiogram’s, entered the picture. Within minutes he knew exactly what was wrong and what needed to be done. (I started to breathe.) It would involve two heart surgeries but she would be ok. Oh, the joy that brought us! We found out that if our visit to the pediatrician had been the standard two-week wellness check-up (which was standard at the time) instead of ten days, she would have turned blue and possibly died.
This week, remember that God is the one who is in control of everything. Save yourself from panic, turn to prayer and hand it over where you will find peace. Remember…when in a fix, Philippians 4:6!
6” Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
“The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” Proverbs16:9
“Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16
If you don’t think you are blessed; remember, your heart is still beating. Anonymous
P.S. As God would have it in His perfect plan, Catherine is now a nursing student doing a summer internship in Labor and Delivery in the same hospital where she was born.